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I have always been a big movie buff, I memorize the lines of my favorite films, and relate them to life or try to live life through them. Recently life has slipped into the stereotypical shift of focus. For comparison today, we have “The Devil Wears Prada”. In the movie, Andy must choose between her relationship and her career.  As she begins to accel at one, the other must suffer. I always wondered why she couldn’t just be good at both, I have always been able to handle several things at once in my life why can’t she. I have now begun to see this delema in my own life. The bottom line comes down to time. It is not our unwillingness to succeed at multiple things, it is our time limitation. As I have begun to shift my focus towards my business and work, my education has slid rapidly down the hill. This never used to be a problem, and this is my cause for concern. I have always been able to juggle school and work without a problem. Why now, when the cost is so high must it become an issue. I have been working since I was 14 and attending school at the same time. Seven years of experience should make anybody good at something, but I fear I have only gotten worse. Is it that one consumes me more, that I’m more driven to succeed at one than the other? Am I giving 100%? In my head I want to blame someone else, and yet I can’t logically select any individual except myself. In order to confront this behavior I have decided to keep track of how much time I spend doing various things. Perhaps I can shed some light on what is utilizing the most time in my day. How did I come to this point? Everything I want to get done isn’t, and everything that needs to get done isn’t, and everthing I have to get done isn’t. What is???